Hey guys! So this is a more personal post than what I normally post, so if that isn't your forte, don't feel pressured to read.
Anyways, I have a Depression Anxiety disorder
, so it's difficult for me to do random, yet easy tasks. Right now, I'm 16, which means I'm learning to drive. I've driven around in parking lots since there's usually no one around, but that's it. Yesterday, I was driving and I decided I wanted to drive home since my house wasn't too far. I managed to push myself to do it, but it was quite difficult, especially since I had never driven on the road before. I had to "battle my inner demons" I guess, but I did it, and I'm proud.
Today, I did something that might have you thinking "Katie, what's so special about that?
" My mom was quite ill and couldn't take me to school, and normally she calls the attendance office if I can't come, however, she couldn't speak, so I had to do it. Now, because of my anxiety, I hate talking on the phone. I'm much
more comfortable texting. I had to force myself to call the school, which I had never done before. It may sound silly, and I totally
understand why it would, but for me it was quite scary.
The point of this journal isn't necessarily just me ranting, but I wanna say something. If you have some kind of mental disorder like me, or are just uncomfortable doing something you know you need to do, whether it be asking someone something, or doing something you don't normally do/have been putting off, just do it.
I totally understand how hard it is, but once you do it, you'll feel so much better, and if you mess up, oh well. Tomorrow is a new day. Your mistakes don't define you.
I still have a hard time doing certain things, but I always keep trying to push myself out of my comfort zone. Of course, don't push yourself too hard. Know your limits, but exceed your normal boundaries
(if that makes any sense). You'll really feel a great relief after you do it, so stop holding it back, and do it.